Bonjour ♥
Assalamualaikum ;)
Dear Sweet Stalker ,DearCrush ,
it's all about me and you ,
'' 4/12/13 : he gave me a song . hear it if you want . sleeping with sirens james dean and audrey hepburn acoustic .
5/12/13 : he start to be honest that he got crush on me for a long time and he say he love me . yah . that's for the first time he say he love me .
14/12/13 : our first me . omg . he's prince charming . I'm in love with him . I mean a lot from the past . yiehaaaaaaaaaa :') *tears fall* malam tu main truth or dare dgn budak sbr . aku yg ajak main but last aku yg terkene . from budak sbr . cabaran kene pakai gamba dea . hhaha . first mmg tak nak sbb malu babe . but . yah . dari kene yg terok . buat jela .
15/12/13 : pagi tu . kantoi aku guna gamba dea and tetibe dea pon tukar guna gamba aku . hahaha . sweet kan ? hehe . and and and and dea ada ckp yg " **** suka faz , sayang faz " hehe . dea jujur babe x) hahaha . cair wa . malam tu plak . time ni takk leyh bla . dea tetinggal fon kat luar . and someone bukak fon dea and wc me . lol . someone tu tipu aku bagai bagai kata dea kunci diri la ape la . hell . hahahaha . lastly dea muncul and dea ckp tu akak sedara dea . dea marah kemain dekat akak sedara dea tu . hehe . dea risaukan aku . hehe . i love my crush :* *lap lap lap air mata*
16/12/13 : he start being honest to me that he jelous when me being close to someone . haha . this day . he screen capture my conversation with that guy . wuuhuuu . terserlah kejelesan dea . he's being very cute . hehe
18/12/13 : dea mengadu yang dea dapat mimpi buruk . hm . yah . memang buruk . about death . hell . that make me ver worry about him . he being not in mood and keep talking bad things . I've pity and worry about him . aku cube tenangkan dea . sedaya upaya . and that time . dea sempat gak being sweet . he say that " be halal for you (nikah) " yawwww . he afraid he cannot do that . he afraid he cannot nikah me . wow ! that day i keep smiling . hehe . tak sangka die serius :') ya allah , andai die jodohku . kao permudahkanlah :')
19/12/13 : we start to skype . I keep say that I miss him very much and finally he ask me for skype . about 1.37 I think that time . hehe . we skype from .37 until 3.44 . yah . time tu memang bermanja habes dengan dea . and that time . he sing for me for non stop . ohmay :') he's being very sweet .
20/12/13 : he being very happy that day . haha . he said that he dream about me . I means both of us . in a house . with a child . yawwww . sweet meh . hahaha . I like :') *wipe me tears*
21/12/13 : our second meet . haha . that time . first he say that he cannot come to kl for meet me . but. soon he appear . buuu . he lie to me . but its okay . asalkan last last jumpa gak . spent time kat klcc . tapi sayang . tak dapat tangkap gamba sesame . hell yeah --' haha . tapi tak kesah asalkan dapat jumpe . and dea cakap dea suke tgk aku pakai dress . yeah . I know . I'm beautiful in dress . kah kah kah . *perasan sudah --'*
22/12/13 : dekat wc . I've start being syok sendiri . wc dea banyak banyak . tak dibalas . call tak diangkat . text tak dibalas......
1/1/14 : this day sepatutnya hari perjumpaan kami lagi . birthday si dea . tapi sayang . tak dapat jumpa . hm . macam macam jadi pada haritu . aku call . dea tak angkat . everything being so slow . our conversation change . *tears can't stop . help me......*
2/1/14 : when open wc . suprise ! dea muncul . that time. he's being crazy . hahaha . katanya gilakan aku . ngeng plak dea time tu . but that time dea dah kembalikan senyuman aku . alhamdulillah .
but now.............. em....... start from 3/1/14 semuanya sudah berubah balik . conversation menjadi slow........... segala galanya menjadi slow..... dah tak sehappy dulu . ya allah . berat hati ni nak terima semua tu ...... until one day I ask him " still remember me ? " and he say . " I don't know " dea dah ta ingat aku . ya allah . waktu itu hanya kao maha mengetahui apa yang aku rasa . mungin aku belom cukup mengenali dia . tapi aku dah mule menyayangi dea . kao berikanlah aku kekuatan menghadapi ini semua . andai dea jodohku permudahkanlah ya allah . sampaikan rinduku padanya ya allah . hmmmm :') *lap air mata . mata dah sakit sbb nangis je . lol " ''
lots of love ♥
FAEZNUR FATIHAH
